[00:00.000] 作词 : Jonathon Quiles
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Jonathon Quiles
[00:09.837] Yeah, I don't wanna talk, stop reaching out
[00:12.953] Didn't need you then, don't need you now
[00:14.508] This ****ing world's tryna beat down
[00:15.823] I spill my heart till, I'm bleeding it out
[00:17.395] I rap my truth, never leave it out
[00:18.711] I overthink, when I think about
[00:20.122] Those who did me wrong, So I write a song
[00:21.673] Cuz you mother****ers gotta see me now, I'm
[00:23.942] Tired of this, I'm just tryna get inspired again
[00:26.042] All of my demons keep piling in
[00:27.528] Until I can't breath
[00:28.145] They make me believe
[00:29.028] That I'm hurt till I'm spiraling
[00:30.346] I hate the mood that I am in
[00:31.772] Conceal my pain, I'm hiding it
[00:33.219] This feeling won't fade, I'm tired of it
[00:34.748] Yo why is it, that all my feelings
[00:36.218] Always have me stuck on the deep end
[00:37.720] I an not sit around and pretend
[00:39.117] Like I'm alright, when I'm in pieces
[00:40.685] Seeing all the people I believed in
[00:42.055] Switch up, so they force me to leave them
[00:43.548] Now my trust issues keep increasing
[00:45.019] While I'm tryna battle my demons, I
[00:46.633] Wanna quit but that just isn't me
[00:48.670] I put a decade in this
[00:50.061] I've mastered my self belief
[00:51.488] But one thing that I can't fix
[00:52.984] Are the burdens my life bring
[00:54.416] They suffocate me and it's
[00:55.925] Dragging my soul underneath
[00:57.637] Wish I could breathe
[00:59.019]
[00:59.336] People aren't who they pretend to be
[01:00.987] So I keep my distance
[01:02.170] Cuz I'll see thru them eventually
[01:03.727] Fake people calling people fake
[01:05.303] That sums up the whole industry
[01:07.001] I see them as enemies
[01:08.193] I got reals one who stick with me, but
[01:09.587]
[01:09.787] I'm trapped in my thoughts
[01:12.687] I have felt so lost
[01:15.569] Why can't I get out
[01:19.536] Cuz I just can not escape, ooo
[01:25.219] Cuz I just can not escape, ooo, I just
[01:31.647]
[01:33.033] Waking up feeling empty and stuck
[01:35.380] It's depressing it sucks, I'm not tryna give up
[01:38.290] But I can not escape this, yeah, yeah
[01:41.247] Yeah I can not escape this, yeah, yeah
[01:44.180] Yeah, going to bed
[01:45.611] With these thoughts in my head
[01:46.939] Make me feel I'm less
[01:48.473] Like I'm better off dead
[01:49.899] Cuz I can not escape this, yeah yeah
[01:52.929] Yeah I can not escape this, yeah yeah
[01:55.559]
[01:55.934] Yeah, I'm surprise that I don't drink
[01:58.576] Maybe that'll numb my pain
[01:59.803] At night when I can't sleep
[02:01.162] These thoughts scatter my brain
[02:02.712] And make me start to think
[02:04.088] About times that I've wasted
[02:05.800] Chasing, people I grieved
[02:07.900] I need a reset, hate feeling depressed
[02:10.613] Deflect, every single issue and
[02:12.867] Regret, reject any help you offer
[02:15.570] I'll eject, and isolate myself
[02:17.605] Cuz either way I swear these next
[02:19.386] Chapters in my life, I won't let nobody in
[02:22.057] But I know I'm a **** that up cuz isn't it obvious
[02:24.964] I always break my self promises, the problem is
[02:27.383] I'll commit to everybody else before jonathon, damn
[02:31.467] My demons keep me cornered
[02:32.752] They taunt me til I'm tortured
[02:34.147] Happy sad, in that order
[02:35.620] I may have a disorder
[02:37.113] Carry weight on my shoulders
[02:38.493] My heart is Growing colder, my dad is never sober
[02:41.443] That's why I don't go over - I
[02:43.846] Sound over the top, in every record I drop
[02:46.613] Live my life we can swap
[02:48.136] Some say that I'm blessed
[02:49.631] When really I'm not
[02:51.159] I got everything but can't enjoy anything I got cuz
[02:53.158]
[02:54.285] I'm trapped in my thoughts
[02:57.339] I have felt so lost
[03:00.145] Why can't I get out
[03:04.085] Cuz I just can not escape, ooo
[03:09.966] Cuz I just can not escape, ooo, I just
[03:16.381]
[03:18.042] Waking up feeling empty and stuck
[03:20.088] It's depressing it sucks, I'm not tryna give up
[03:22.969] But I can not escape this, yeah, yeah
[03:26.017] Yeah I can not escape this, yeah, yeah
[03:28.892] Yeah, going to bed
[03:30.223] With these thoughts in my head
[03:31.649] Make me feel I'm less
[03:33.120] Like I'm better off dead
[03:34.602] Cuz I can not escape this, yeah yeah
[03:37.633] Yeah I can not escape this, yeah yeah
[03:39.959]
[03:40.582] I can't escape the pain inside my heart
[03:46.461] No I can't escape, no I can't escape