[00:00.000] 作词 : RT Jonny
[00:01.000] 作曲 : RT Jonny
[00:02.000] 编曲 : RT Jonny
[00:35.105]Every time I’m rhyming, why is it so hard to breath
[00:37.862]Focusing hard on the timing my words hit the beat
[00:40.615]When the lines get too emotional, I hit delete
[00:43.370]I guess that’s the other side of me you’ll never see
[00:46.129]I say that I’ll make it, I guess that’s make believe
[00:48.630]They say that I fake it, that’s what your eyes perceive
[00:51.385]My closest faded and I ain’t even got time to grief
[00:54.394]Maybe I just don’t see what I’ve achieved
[00:57.147]I’ve been putting up shots on court daily like I’m Stephen
[00:59.901]Wanna hit that jackpot, Waiting for that triple seven
[01:02.660]I’ve been searching for the answers, but what the **** is the question?
[01:05.412]I’ve been through hell but why do I still believe in heaven
[01:07.664]Damn
[01:08.414]I’ve done everything that I can but it’s still not enough
[01:11.170]I’ve gave everything to my fans but they say it’s not the stuff
[01:13.929]I gave into therapy cuz my mind is ****ed
[01:16.180]The only thing I know cures is whiskey and a puff, man that shits tough
[01:19.434]I’m sitting in my room everyday tryna combine these rhymes
[01:22.192]Reach into the back of my mind tryna find these lines
[01:24.946]Wanna move forward but I can’t keep my mind from rewinds
[01:27.700]Sometimes I feel my life and my mind isn’t even mine
[01:30.458]It’s funny, the realest me is when I’m intoxicated
[01:33.212]When I let it all out, the only time I ain’t faking
[01:35.980]The only time I feel all the weight on my shoulder lifted
[01:38.735]I feel like doing this is a curse, but they say I’m gifted
[01:41.243]Voices in my head start talking every time I’m jotting
[01:44.247]I try to drown all these demons, but I’m the one that’s drowning
[01:47.001]I’m perfecting my craft, but truthfully, my rhymes are rotting
[01:50.010]But I shouldn’t worry too much, cuz I’m the one they crowning
[01:52.763]Maybe that’s the devil talking but I can’t tell no more
[01:55.265]Don’t wanna do shit at all, spacing out, I’m down on the floor
[01:58.021]This time I think it’s finally done it, reached into my core
[02:00.779]This is when I need you the most, god why you closing your doors?
[02:03.531]Sitting on the floor, room’s spinning and I’m trying to breath
[02:06.540]Got my finger on the trigger, devil’s telling me squeeze
[02:09.045]Need a rest stop, need a pep talk, god I’m begging you please
[02:12.048]I’m way too ****ing proud to get down on my knees ****